just didn't feel like posting the last few days.. maybe its the weather thats been keeping my heart at peace.. or maybe i am just growing tiresome of the fact that there is virtually 'nothing' i can do to show you the true meaning of flamboyant feelings that seem to erupt inside of me as i write this.. and its not like everything is normal.. i have a strange feeling that this intentionally constructed communication gap only makes you go farther away from me.. why is it that you seem to be clinging on to what you considered most important in the past.. why don't you realize that what really matters lies in the present..
"let go of a sorrowful past.. and the present will seem beautiful.. even let go of a past that was beautiful.. as it only makes a sorrowful present more bearable.." - Aman Dahiya :)
sometimes your actions seem to confuse me.. the things you say are derogatory to what you do.. i guess it feels good to be the person who likes her privacy(you).. but it sucks to be the person respecting it(me).. its time you stopped accusing the rain of having made your day dull just because you haven't yet felt them drops wet your skin.. and actually stepped out into the open and enjoyed your favorite season..
sometimes i laugh while thinking of how deeply i seem to be in love with you even though i barely know you.. and even though you never gave way to even a wild possibility that we could ever be together.. i have a feeling that this might just work out.. i might just be giving myself false hope.. but then its better to feel alive about something imaginary.. than kill yourself over something that may never be.. having completely immersed myself in thoughts of faith.. i don't see any dark side to where this is going.. maybe you will come to me and give me a significant reason to keep breathing.. or maybe we will part ways without you knowing how deep my emotions seem to go.. maybe ill no longer be on this plane after happens..
the point is.. no matter what may be the end result of this underrated episode.. the only person to be affected by the outcome.. will be yours truly.. but i will live on with hope in my heart.. and faith in my soul.. that one day.. you will come to me.. and do not ask me 'why' i love you so much.. because i finished reading 'the alchemist'.. and there is this line in the book that say - 'Someone is loved because someone is loved. No reason is needed for loving'. so i don't really need an excuse to love you.. and i can do it with a heart void of reason, doubt and elaboration as to why i would never want to get over you :)